I feel this way constantly, being left behind.
I dreamed of this in dreams, being left behind onto an airplane, being left behind on a train, being left behind to good opportunities. It was liking going to a banquet and it's free and welcome to all, and you walked in late and found out all the good staff are gone already. You kick yourself hard because you know you could have it too if you had not been "left behind".

Most strongly, I felt being left behind by life. I am not in control. From unanswered emails, unwashed clothe and dishes, uncleaned floors to un filled important forms, un-searched jobs, un written thoughts that certainly would help keep me on track.

How do I keep myself from falling behind? I felt falling behind in everything, work, study, life's trife matters and important matters. All.

I admire those people, who did it all. Who cook nice meals and still keep their home specklessly clean, who have a happy kid and satisfied patterner, who has love, marriage, health and success. Of course this is possible, THEY did it! If you need a proof. But who really knows?

Most of all, I feel left behind by life, as if life is passing by, and I am not moving along with it, to catch up and keep up with its current. This urge of being left behind, the question is not BY WHO? But BY WHAT?

The answer?
By Life.